The clock strikes 6:00

Coursework has finally (finally!) concluded.

it's been quite a while.

It was a undescribable feeling when the clock striked 6:00PM, it was a mixture of loss, joy, pride and maybe nostalgia.

Well, things hadn't exactly been the way I envisioned them out to be. 

There had been moments of sorrow, angst; 

there had been moments of surprise, laughter as well. 

It's been an unforgettable journey, and I've gotten to know some really really lovely people. 

This is a bunch I wouldn't want to live without. 

It's weird how I felt more independent (and confident) doing my S4 coursework as compared to this one. 

But through this journey, I guess I've gotten to understand myself better and all my quirky (or you can say weird) habits and temperaments. 

To be honest, it ain't exactly a good thing to let those temperaments manifest. 

but oh well. 

I think I've become more sensitive too, and that's bad. 

Oh, one joy to add on to the many: 

I've found new loves I guess. And this is one of them; embracing things I never used to in the past. 

Approx 10 x10cm

Pencil

What now

It's been a long while since I've posted anything here |

At the brink of losing things you hold dear ,

You start to feel like the whole world is going to crumble.

You wonder if things will ever stay the same,

Cos you're so used to seeing the same old faces,

You're so used to the like-minded conversations you share 

You're, too used to heading to that same space as a refuge

And you wonder if after today it'd all still be there.

I guess things have more or less concluded, 

And maybe what's left is a fragment or two.

Somehow I ought to feel relieved,

But there's more sadness than joy and a little tinge of regret.

Pencil

10 x 15cm 

Card for J!

It's been such a long time since I posted here, been contemplating a lot about the purpose and significance of this blog.

Was there a need to share, was there a need to publicly show. Well? Maybe not. But I really do need to document, remember, and hopefully make a conscious effort to understand my journey and growth.

Hence, i probably would still maintain this blog, maybe document cards and small gifts I've made? Haha

Here's a card I made for Justin!

Postcard size
Mixed media

Count your blessings,

Sometimes, I think I'm way too unappreciative, discontented.
Really really need to learn to be a better person.

I had the immediacy to create this.
20 x 20cm
Black ball-point pen

Reference: Shiyin's "snippets"

Life drawing (during lessons)

Drew during math tutorial yday, haha.

Junhao was reading his Lit text, so it made him the obvious target for a sketch. People like Houzheng have hyperactive disorder which it makes it terribly difficult to sketch :/

It doesn't look exactly like Junhao, but there's a resemblance (my friends say that too)

It's funny how he actually knew I was drawing him, he said he could feel it. Haha probably bcos I kept staring at him? Haha~ awkward.

But he was really calm and composed to refrain from movement to let me sketch him though, haha- without me telling him to not move.

Previously, I've tried sketching other people and nah, they kept moving (despite me telling them to stay still)

Haha, it's fun to sketch people you know, but I really need to sketch better! :)


Jun Hao
Haha, he knew
8x9 cm
Pencil

Unknown

I have no idea why I drew this.
30mins

Needa draw better in pen, sigh.

Plastic bag creased in a weird angle
15x9 cm
Ballpoint pen

Shaken.

There's been too many things that happened, too many things that saddened me and everyone around me.

I'm slowly losing the confidence of the control of life that I always thought and presumed I had (or anyone would have).

The first time my beliefs were shaken, torn apart, and I'm unsure if I even have the courage to piece them all back again.

#emotional

11x10 cm
Pencil